A “The Hyenas” the monologue of Camilla Mancinidaughter of former Italy coach Roberto Mancini, who recently published her first novel ‘You’re a butterfly’. The girl, who was born with paresis on her face and reduced mobility due to a problem during childbirth, addresses the topic of bullying of which she herself was a victim. Despite this wound, Camilla managed to transform her suffering into a message of strength and hope.
These are his words:
«Tonight I want to imagine that this camera is a mirror and look myself straight in the eyes, even if it’s not easy. For years I fought against my image, avoiding looking at myself, but now I want to try. I see me, Camilla, and I would like to say to her: “Smile, you are brave”. I never told you because I was too strict, I had an idea of perfection that – now I know – was unattainable. Don’t worry, everything will go as it should: some dreams you are making come true, others will be shattered, but one is enough to feel immense joy. I know that your instinct is to stay in your place, in the shadows, but it’s not okay, just as it’s not okay to suffer what has accompanied you since you were seven. It’s sad to find out how much words can hurt. “You can’t play with us.” “You’re different.” “Why does your mouth look like that?” There is no privilege that is stronger than pain, no surname, advantage or shield that can protect from suffering. But you have to say “Thank you” to those people too because you got desperate but never gave up. You were sad, bitter and desolate but never alone and even today I feel the love of those who were close to me in the darkest moments. You’re right, I’m “different” and I’ve felt that way my whole life. I decided to tell my experiences also to support those who experience a similar situation and suffer in silence. I have decided that panic and anxiety attacks, silent enemies, serve to make me understand that the time has come to allow myself to be vulnerable. It’s almost scary but I want to trust myself, I want to try. Mine is not a war and, if it ever was, it’s over. I can take off the armor. I’m free. My name is Camilla Mancini and I am beautiful and I am courageous. I tell myself this. And that’s fine.”
